rambling of the insomniac

I want a white husky. I really want to go on a cruize. I want to learn how to ballroom dance. I want a girl to dance with. Is life really this complicated, or so simple that we over think it? Why does everyone have to grow up? Why do we grow apart? Can we ever achieve nirvana? Why do people think religion makes you a good person instead of being a good person making you a good person. Girls who play video games are hott. I want to go fishing. I miss football. Goo goo dolls is good music. The rose family are good people, better yet the best people. The older you get the more you find out how much people really care about you. God she makes me smile. Friends I feel i have lost: kris brockman, brennan hallows, alex thomas, jeremey allen, jake woodruff, justin tuft, seth cummings, jeremey hall, guy mecham, shayne bonner, skyler street, skyler bamgartener, matt stone, cami richards, aubri salazar and taylor woodruff. Girls I want to say sorry to: sarah joe, sarah ritchie, lauren brown, and mack freeman. I need to hangout with my cousin dj and my uncle jordan, how could I not realize how important they are to me. I didnt appreciate heather like i should have. Jordan is one of the toughest girls i know. I think i like tuki more than he likes me. Russell and chandler are amazing, most people dont get one best friend they can lean on at anytime, i have two.

Ask and you wont recieve

Greed is something everyone struggles with, some people like me want endless amounts of money and power, others want to feel loved by everyone, some want world peace. No matter what it is that you want, its still greedy, i cant take everyone's money without being greedy just like someone cant make everyone love them without being greedy. Even the idea of world peace is greedy, some people pride themselves on war victories (america) and others feel like it is part of their religion to battle (middle east). So now that i have shown that want=greed I am going to get to my real point. When you ask for a favor or for someone to do something they will only do it if it will benefit themselves. Like, "hey big muscle man dont punch me in the face!", if he really wants to he will anyway and if he doesnt punch you its not because you asked him not to, its because you made him think about what he is doing and he doesnt want to go to jail or get in trouble with his mom. Either way its for him, not for you. Asking nicely will never get you what you want. Either you should convince them that THEY would be happier doing what you want, or force them. So ask and you probably wont recieve, carry a gun and you will. ;)

back in ttown

I came back wednesday to ttown to visit my old roommate. We are about to watch across the universe, sounds shitty i know, but it all good. Chandler thinks that is funny too. I am going to do a running diary of this shit-ass movie.

Ok two things pop out to me right off the bat why I would hate a movie like this, 1: its the beatles 2: they sing throughout the entire thing, no dialogue just singing...really thats it. musicals suck

6:21- movie is starting, starts out with a guy sitting on a beach singing....are you fucking kidding me.

6:24- cool switch from a 60's prom to a underground club, setting up two seperate couples. the underground chick looks like a crack whore. the 60's girl looks pretty good, maybe we will get to see her naked.

6:30-underground guy is leaving britain to go to america, just leaves his gf, she actually thinks he is going to stay faithful, we will see how well that works out. 60's prom guy is going to war , so that relationship has a good chance of working too.

6:32- weird football scene with the players doing balet and slow motion flips over each other, the writer obviously has watched alot of football.

6:36-guy apparently went to america to meet his dad that didnt know he was born, dads an asshole, if the kid wouldnt have started out singing on the beach i might feel bad for him.

6:40- katie's fav part of the movie is where they pretend to smoke weed, but then after a flip the character jude in america coughs out smoke. this is a magic movie.

6:43- girl whos bf is in the military gets a letter and instead of opening it she sings about it for like 3 minutes. as she is playing basketball she is singing about it, there were over 10 players on the court too, they should have just left sports out of this movie., doing math and singing about the letter.

6:51- jude is starting to dig the military guys gf in college. early prediction is looking really good.

6:55- military bf is dead, chandler noticed that they sent sergeants to the door to tell the family, if it was real they would send officers.

6:59- black guy loses his son in the detroit city bombings, pretty cool song after, come together by the beatles, but they sing it blues style. hookers!!!!! dad walks aimlessly throughout the city and people dance and sing come together as he walks. more hookers!!!!!!

7:09- jude's american friend gets a draft notice, he catches it on fire. then girl with dead bf bitches to jude about her bf being dead, you can tell he just wants to get some. he could honestly care less.

7:14- i win, both relationships failed. she mourned her bfs loss for about two weeks. they wake up naked in the bed together.

7:15- best friend goes to the military to get his physical, 3 minutes of guys in thier underwear ill never get back.

7:28- weird sex scene on an inflatable bed, they are on acid so everything is acid washed. makes drugs look fun, i wonder where all their money comes from to do all this.

7:32- weird carnival scene, i just yawned for the 5th time this movie started. its not awful, its just boring. Maybe if i were a bigger beatles fan...

7:51-we quit the movie, because it sucked.

maybe sometimes you can judge a book, or in this case a movie by its cover.

It's been Awhile

I haven't posted in about a year, true I only started this blog for my english class but still. Today is a good day to post because I am yet again faced with a decision on where I'm going to live. Its a hard decision because nothing stays the same, as soon as I think I have a place figured out people change things up on me. Sometimes its for the good and it makes me miss my other home and other times its bad and it makes me want to leave. This time I think I need to worry less about the people in both homes and instead worry about finishing school.

Saying Goodbye

Ever since I was a little kid when my dad would leave the house I would say goodbye and get corrected and told it was only see you later. I think the reason for this is goodbye's are sad, where as see ya laters didn't hurt quite as bad. As I have grown up though there has been more and more times where a simple see you later wouldn't work, because that would have been lie. All growing up is is learning about yourself and knowing who you are enough so when you do have to say good bye you can carry on without them. I have had to say good bye to both my parents so you would think it would start to get easier. I had to do it again with most of my friends back in Utah, I will see some again but for the most part we will have grown so far apart that its almost as if we are strangers. The most recent time for me to say goodbye was today, I finished school for the semester and moved out of Paty, and on my way out I said see ya later to everybody because I knew we would both be back next year. My roommate helped my take all my stuff down to my car and when I left him he said well goodbye man, I knew the proper response was just to say goodbye because he wouldn't be coming back next year. I couldn't though, throughout this year he was just about the only person I could trust and I was just going to never see him again? So I corrected him, and told him it was just a see you later. Now whether thats true or not I will find out, but it made me feel better.

Miss Paty?

I left Paty today for what I hope to be my last time. When I was driving away all the memories I had from Paty were running through my head and I started to wonder if I would actually miss the old building others considered their home. Almost Immediately I got my answer in an immediate hell no. The happiest thing about being done with my first year of school isnt that I wont have to take another test or go to another class all summer, its that I wont ever have to sleep on those beds made of plastic again.

Cleaning up

This past weekend I started the grueling process of packing up my stuff and cleaning my room so I would be ready to check out of Paty. I was reading over the checklist they gave me for what all we needed to do before we could leave and one was vacuum. That wouldn't have been a problem except for the fact that Paty has a strict 24/7 quiet hour policy going on for finals. So just to vacuum my room I had to get my RA and have him watch as I vacuumed my room so I wouldn't get into trouble. That just seems a little rediculous to me, and it also just another example of how horrible it is to live in the Paty Projects.